Today Mercury goes retrograde in Virgo (August 20-September 12, 2010). Virgo's energy within is our drive to perfect the details; she's your inner organizer/terrorist who wants to make life/relationships/things perfect…it's the shadow place where we get lost in the details and stop forward movement. Let me work on this, clean this up so I don't have to do that.
Be aware of your 'this and that' place.
Last week I made a list of all the tasks I am responsible for as an soulo-entrepreneur/artist. As a shamanic woman I am in business and run the household (I won't bore you with the mighty long list). It became obvious that my 'this and that' places on the list are where I hide out…lost in the need for perfection my wtf Argh!!@#! is a symptom of my fear and doubt. dang.
My post-it note aha:
This little ditty came to me yesterday after a long week of challenging my thinking. Is it true? How do I know it's true? What would I be without that thought? aka Byron Katie's The Work. Oh the places I am going. What's the antidote for this Mercury Rx? Focus on Gemini and Sagittarius.
Mercury rules Gemini, those day-to-day thoughts that run/ruin my life. Mercury in Virgo is an opportunity to clean out the cobwebs- self-loathing that drives you and me to distraction.
With a good measure of Sagittarius, the risk taker, it's time to do things differently. I am a DIY woman… the "I'll do it myself' mindset leaves me feeling awkward when I ask for support. I was trained not to ask.
DIY' women take on way too much. We want control, we don't trust. We weren't heard as children. Only I can do it right…which means those around us do it wrong, whether we say it or not.
I want to be served. I trust myself. When I speak my truth I am not responsible if you hear me or don't hear me…or don't like what I have to say.
This means I have to take a risk, voice what I want clearly, and then expect the task to be completed. Virgo is all about letting people serve me, Sagittarius is about trusting they will come through (Pisces/Spirit/Connection to the Muse).
When I get lost in the "this and that", my control issues stop the flow of creative energy (Pisces); the muse doesn't get served, my tribe doesn't get served.
Mercury = mind chatter. Mercury rules both Gemini and Virgo. Gemini stirs up the black and white thinking, unhealed wounds of our past. Mercury Rx's do the same. Here's my 4 step process:
- Check-in What happened at the Gemini New Moon and throughout the summer? Where have I been? Spend the weekend tracking your thoughts- the judgments…
- Look at your SoulCollage® cards for the message: What have the cards been saying the last 3-4 months. Look for clues to what this Mercury Rx is about for you. If you haven't created a SoulCollage®, start. Something will be revealed. In your birth chart where are the signs Gemini, Virgo, Sag and Pisces are, what houses? There you'll find both the problem and solution.
- What am I getting lost in? Is it serving my Muse? What would happen if I delegate this task? Yes spend the time and money- and allow someone to serve me? How would that feel? How would my life shift? Turn it around.
- Harvest and let go. We are entering the fall season. Harvesting is about editing and sorting, seeking a balance, and letting go.
Look Mercury went into it's shadow on August 2nd…asking "What's got me?" It's already working you…I bid you adieu with this thought: